All I've done for the last week is work and sleep, and attempt to take care of the child without having a tantrum of my own along with hers. Seriously, this full time mommy business/ part time work business really SUCKS!!!
All I want to do while I'm at work is come home and play with Mad, but when I get home all I want is for Mad to nap so I can nap too.... then I start feeling really guilty because I've been working all day and I should want to spend time with my family and play with them. So then I get angry, and then I get angry at myself for getting angry.... it's a horrible vicious cycle. I'm in bed at 8:30 or 9 pm every night but I can't sleep because I'm feeling so sorry and angry at myself. Stupid.
I didn't really mean to start this blog to whine and moan, because I know I really don't have it that bad. My life is fairly easy, and Mad is a peach. I'm just feeling a little down. I know I need to start exercising again, this always happens when I don't run. I go a little crazy, crazy Tap isn't much fun if you ask me.
Hopefully once I figure out this working 30 hours a week thing, I'll get out of this funk.... it has to get better, and it will.... I'm sure of that.
I just keep reminding myself that I'm going home for Christmas is less than a month!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I'm not 21 anymore...
My little Mini Mad alarm clock went off at 6:45 this morning and I came to the conclusion it's really not as much fun as it used to be to drink all day and stay up late. Granted I went to bed at midnight so really it wasn't that late. However I'd do it all over again (and again and again, I'm a masochist).... I had such a fun day hanging out with friends and watching a GREAT football game. Ugly football game at times but really who cares, as long as my team came out on top.
Then we played some Left, Right, Center, which I haven't played in a few years. I LOVE this game, this is really the only time I will gamble with my money. I was given this game by my wonderful and extremely talented friend, Judson. If you haven't played LFC before you're welcome to come to my house, I'll take your $3 and show you.
Then there was some heavy conversations about how crazy females are, I tend to hang out with a lot of males so I'm always the one trying to explain us, which doesn't work, ever.... I can't even understand us. Being the good wifey I am, I sent the boys off to the bar, because what's better in a time of crisis but beer.
I've gotten way off topic, but when I was 21 I'd be out with those boys trying to drink them all under the table until they kicked me out of the bar. Now I stay up past 10 PM and I'm exhausted and a wreck the rest of the week. I look back on those days with such fondness.... it was so fun to be carefree and stupid.
But then I walk into Mad's room in the morning and she gives me the biggest grin and I wouldn't want to go back in time for anything.
Then we played some Left, Right, Center, which I haven't played in a few years. I LOVE this game, this is really the only time I will gamble with my money. I was given this game by my wonderful and extremely talented friend, Judson. If you haven't played LFC before you're welcome to come to my house, I'll take your $3 and show you.
Then there was some heavy conversations about how crazy females are, I tend to hang out with a lot of males so I'm always the one trying to explain us, which doesn't work, ever.... I can't even understand us. Being the good wifey I am, I sent the boys off to the bar, because what's better in a time of crisis but beer.
I've gotten way off topic, but when I was 21 I'd be out with those boys trying to drink them all under the table until they kicked me out of the bar. Now I stay up past 10 PM and I'm exhausted and a wreck the rest of the week. I look back on those days with such fondness.... it was so fun to be carefree and stupid.
But then I walk into Mad's room in the morning and she gives me the biggest grin and I wouldn't want to go back in time for anything.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
football saturdays
I absolutely adore college football, I usually spend all day Saturday from September through November in front of our two TV's in the basement watching all the games.
This Saturday my favorite team, UW Badgers will take on the Minnesota Gophers. This is my favorite game of all of them, nothing is better than rivalry's, and in my opinion this is the greatest football rivalry of them all (the Michigan-Ohio State game is a close second). Even though the Badgers are having a down season, I'm pretty sure if you ask any of the players they will tell you that winning this game and retaining possession of the ax means almost as much as winning every game (ok, maybe winning it all would rock way more than this one game, but I'm sure it ranks right up there).
I wish I could be down in Madison doing the usual tailgating activities, brats and beer bongs, and then at Camp Randall cheering till my voice is gone. I will instead be hosting a party of badger and gopher fans, cheering and taunting each other, there will be brats and home brews (we're too old for beer bongs now).
Even if the evil gophers end up on top, I will still have a great day, because there hasn't been a badger/gopher game that I've attended yet where I haven't had fun. My favorite, thus far, is 2005, where we started tailgating at 5:30 AM, had beer and brats in hand by 6 AM and it was a beautiful unseasonably warm November. The badgers won by blocking a punt and returning it for a touchdown and I cried (top 3 days).
Hopefully this year will be just as memorable, and really, as long as my friends are there how could it not be?
GO BADGERS!!!
This Saturday my favorite team, UW Badgers will take on the Minnesota Gophers. This is my favorite game of all of them, nothing is better than rivalry's, and in my opinion this is the greatest football rivalry of them all (the Michigan-Ohio State game is a close second). Even though the Badgers are having a down season, I'm pretty sure if you ask any of the players they will tell you that winning this game and retaining possession of the ax means almost as much as winning every game (ok, maybe winning it all would rock way more than this one game, but I'm sure it ranks right up there).
I wish I could be down in Madison doing the usual tailgating activities, brats and beer bongs, and then at Camp Randall cheering till my voice is gone. I will instead be hosting a party of badger and gopher fans, cheering and taunting each other, there will be brats and home brews (we're too old for beer bongs now).
Even if the evil gophers end up on top, I will still have a great day, because there hasn't been a badger/gopher game that I've attended yet where I haven't had fun. My favorite, thus far, is 2005, where we started tailgating at 5:30 AM, had beer and brats in hand by 6 AM and it was a beautiful unseasonably warm November. The badgers won by blocking a punt and returning it for a touchdown and I cried (top 3 days).
Hopefully this year will be just as memorable, and really, as long as my friends are there how could it not be?
GO BADGERS!!!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i'm here
Well I've finally did it, I started a blog. I've been meaning to for awhile since most days I sit on the computer reading other peoples blogs, however i was having a hard time coming up with a good name. I figured since I enjoy a good brew now and then (or every day, if I get the chance) and my nickname is Tap, "From the Tap" seems to fit well . I don't really know if I'm that interesting to have my own blog but might as well give it a try. If all else fails I can post pictures of my adorable baby girl, "Mini Mad" and call it a day. Because really, could anything get cuter than this.....
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