All I've done for the last week is work and sleep, and attempt to take care of the child without having a tantrum of my own along with hers. Seriously, this full time mommy business/ part time work business really SUCKS!!!
All I want to do while I'm at work is come home and play with Mad, but when I get home all I want is for Mad to nap so I can nap too.... then I start feeling really guilty because I've been working all day and I should want to spend time with my family and play with them. So then I get angry, and then I get angry at myself for getting angry.... it's a horrible vicious cycle. I'm in bed at 8:30 or 9 pm every night but I can't sleep because I'm feeling so sorry and angry at myself. Stupid.
I didn't really mean to start this blog to whine and moan, because I know I really don't have it that bad. My life is fairly easy, and Mad is a peach. I'm just feeling a little down. I know I need to start exercising again, this always happens when I don't run. I go a little crazy, crazy Tap isn't much fun if you ask me.
Hopefully once I figure out this working 30 hours a week thing, I'll get out of this funk.... it has to get better, and it will.... I'm sure of that.
I just keep reminding myself that I'm going home for Christmas is less than a month!!
1 comment:
Aw, man, I'm sorry you are feeling bummed. I'll bet that once you get on a regular schedule things will be a lot smoother. You're a great mommy and Mad is a great kid. Things will turn around. AND you get to go home for Christmas- how cool is that?
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